If you read the previous story of Generalnass concerning his strong addition with different prostitutes. Here is the continuation
i made mention of quitting totally from it in
which i vowed and swore with my life to God
Almighty that the last time i went will forever be my
last, i swore never to engage and risks my life and
sleeping with different prostitutes, and also i
mentioned something like going for an hiv test the
next day which is this past monday.
To cut the long story short i summoned courage and
went for the text first thing that Monday morning
before going to work.
When i arrived at the test center i sat and waited a
little while because others were there before me,
they all came to do their own different tests, then it
got to my turn and my blood sample was taken, and i
waited with shaky legs and a racing heart, just a
few minutes and the result came in the woman in
charge then handled it to me and i glanced through
it and behold the unthinkable happened it came out
positive (i was HIV positive +v) i just keeps staring
at it like a doll, i don't know what to do or say at
that moment, the woman was still standing looking at
me, then she utter her first words something like
it's not the end of the world that i should follow her
that she wants to take me to someone for
counseling, i was so filled with rage and regrets
that i went out at once with so much anger and
frustrations, i just went straight home and didn't
bother to go to work that day, even up till today i
had not gone to work, am just here lying lifeless,
that same monday i logged in to nairaland and i saw
many mentions urging me to update how the test
result went, i don't have any intentions of opening a
new topic concerning it, so i replied one of the
mentions that it came out positive, since then i
haven't logged in to nairaland until now, in which i
logged in to read replies on the last page of my
previous thread, in which i saw so many replies
urging me to create a topic concerning it so that
others will be able to learn from my experience.
Sincerely speaking i don't really knows how and
where i wants to start in advising those engaging
with prostitutes, and also those having sex without
condoms. smh
If only u guys really knows how regretful and
sorrowful am currently feeling , if only i could turn
back the Sands of time, but it's too late to cry
before the head is off, it's not worth it.
All because of 10 - 15 minutes pleasures, i used my
own hand and money to destroy my life, so many
thoughts on my mind right now i don't really knows
what to do, am so confused, so i will start living on
drugs daily for the rest of my life, me that don't
knows how to take drugs also am always feeling the
side effects of mostly all drugs i always took, just a
little self control would have avoided all this mess i
got myself into, i really feels like the ground should
just open up and swallow me right now, what will my
family say if they eventually finds out, the first son
and father of the family, and also the most quiet
and cool headed of them all has been infected with
hiv virus, none will ever belive that i had ever kissed
a girl before talk more of sleeping with different
prostitutes, i don't really knows what to do or say
anymore, i feels so weak and tired right now, am
really so confused and frustrated, i really so messed
up right now, i must say that everything in this life
has his consequences, the icing of the cake is very
sweet so it's the diabetes it could give u will be
very bitter, nothing goes for nothing in this life, i
must say to u guys my friends and my family that
abstinence is the best, if u can't abstain at least
use a condom, never u have sex using a condom
when u are drunk it's too fatal, sex is sweet so it's
the consequences of it is very disastrous if u
inventually ran out of luck, the thought of living on
drugs for the rests of my life is making me
semi_mental, am so fed up with life right now, me
that don't knows how to take drugs, me that am
always feeling the side effects of taking any drugs
all because of sexual pleasures my life has been
ruined i can't actually believe that this is really
happening, so am now hiv positive, so i have
contracted the dreaded hiv virus.
When i was doing it jumping from one girl /
prostitutes to the other, i thought i was enjoying
life, i thought i was feeling and Banging a soft
feminine body, i didn't knew that the feminine body is
what will end me, i didn't knew that it's the same
feminine body that is going to ruin my life, i didn't
knew that it was not worth it, the cons smartly
outweighs the pros. I really so full of anger, regrets
and frustrations right now, what could easily be
avoided, i allowed my stinking sexual urges to be
controlling me all this while, all the sex i have had
all this while what have i gained? Nothing.
What really pained me most is that all through my
life since when i was born i had never and ever had
sex without condom and am 100% certain i
contracted this from condom breakage, just some
little minutes that condom broke before i later
noticed, i mentioned it earlier on my first threat that
condom had busted about 5times since i started
having sex, i definitely knew for sure that was how
i contracted this, i have never enjoyed the feeling
for once of normal skin to skin sex, i always use
condom when ever am having sex, never have i had
sex without using condom.
I don't think my life will ever remained as it was
before again, just when i have made up my mind
about quitting with different prostitutes
Am feeling so weak and tired right now, i can't type
anymore, i wants to sleep now.
Goodnight and God's speed be with you all.
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